Moment of truth

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Some call it the moment of truth...
Some will move on to other places... for some, this is what they had wished for...but for some, this is catastrophic, to their lifestyle, their family....

It has finally started...
there are not many things that I had prayed very hard for...
but still I said a silent prayer, I prayed for everyone to be alright...
If they had wanted this, let them be at peace with the decision...
If they had wanted otherwise, please keep them safe...

There is a sudden fear in me, not that I will be one of them, but more so that I may have taken up the quota meant for the more worthy...
Am I up to what there is to come?

After hearing about the new targets and shuffling of job scope, I have a certain fear in me.
It's no longer the Little-Rat-put-on-the-wheel-to-run feeling anymore...
but the Do-I-have-the-stamina-to-run-for-the-next-3-4yrs-in-this-slump-market? kinda feeling...

I spent some moments, considering the various options, there aint many...
well, at least there aint many that I can afford to take...in terms of monetary and also emotionally...

Is this the moment to consider other horizon?
Does the other horizon always look brighter and greener?
Alas, such head pain...

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As of now, learning the news that my batchgirl is axed, I feel troubled and sad for her... haiz...