Sunday, July 4, 2010

Trading is not easy!

I am looking forward to Oct...
that will mark my 1 yr of leaving the rat race....
am I making it already? - nope
am I giving up all up? - no i hope!

Do i like trading? Yes!
But... becoming successful in trading is no longer a source of income for me liao....
It has become a testimony to myself that I can achieve whatever I set my mind to doing....
i have done it before, in studies, in sports, in work....
the one i failed badly is relationship, i alwis tot that if i love the person enough, our relationship will work out. This has proved me wrong one too many times...

So what is so different abt trading? I have been told many times that Trading brings out the best n worst in a person! I have close trading kakis who tell me that I "gambled" some of trades... i never tot of myself as a gambler... it all sounds so wrong, so is it the other side of me that i never knew?

I set my mind to doing well in trading... i am honing my skills now... yes, the mkt has been challenging for the past 2 months.... my previous profits has been wiped out n + some losses... monetary losses is not so impt at this stage, i lost my confidence...but yet my trading friends tell me that my analysis is gd! So what went wrong?

Management bah!
Entry bah! my analysis, aka direction is correct, but I cant get in the mkt at the correct time & end up getting kicked out prematurely! So i need to fine tune that!

I need money, not so much for trading- but for buying me time, so that i can continue to hone my skills.
So I am prepared for the next 2 years to come, i have to work really hard, take on extra work (work that i enjoy) to stay afloat.

In the midst of doing all these, i realised that I lost myself somehow.... i had a rude shocked the other day when i realised that I forgot some of my very close friends' birthday! I remb the dates, i knew it is May n June already... but yet each day passes me without me noticing what day it was, to me, it was another trading day when market is open..... i am so sorry my dear friends.... so sowie i lost myself, so sowie i lost u....please pardon me...

Last Aug when i quit my job to prepare myself for trading, i knew that trading is not easy, i constantly remind myself to take my time, slowly learn n dun stress myself...
10mths down the road, I knw now, trading is not easy, but I never tot it will be sooooo tough....
but i aint gona give up.... i will persever....

"Mr.God help me! It is with ur will n grace, i have all that i had achieved, i am granted all i have today becos u gave them to me.... if Trading is not your plans for me, drop me a sign.... but is trading is ur plans for me, help me have the courage to overcome all the adversity that i face today... i asked this in ur precious name... Amen!"

1 comment:

Stella Stels said...

*PAT*PAT*HUGGIES...

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Love,
Starry