Have been feeling rather uneasy for the past few days...
Decision made, opening speech tot of... but still the execution is scary... I am afraid to lose... to lose a friend to confide in... a friend whom I trust with my complicated and jaded soul...
When asked what was my criteria, I dun have 1!... "nice" is tops in the list... then I realised that "Nice" is not enough... I started to realised what my friends said of me, things I have not realised...
So I have been told that I need some1 who
- "takes charge", is "decisive",
- "yet respects my individuality",
- "can carry self well in a social event", "respected as some1 who is knowledgeable"
- "empowered"
What appeals to me:
I am a LEO WOMAN! Hear me *ROAR!*
- Makes me feel desired, like his Queen! Proclaim it LOUD!
- Makes me feel like I am the prize he had worked hard for! Treasure me!
*Am I too full of myself? Wouldnt all girls like that?! I am starting to question if I am an egoistic, self centred creature! Am i? AM I?! OMG! I am a MONSTER!!
Anyway, I am feeling rather terrible abt what happened.... but I guess I had to do it.... else I will really be a selfish woman... Every woman likes the feeling of knowing some1 likes u, but the draw between a one and one that is not, is thin but clear - it's selfish to lead pple on... put the stand clear... at least give forewarning....
Haiz, Let me be the 千古罪人 bah... haiz...
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