I dreamt a short dream,it mus have been ard 5+am...probably for only abt 15mins...
I dreamt Mr.Tan came bk(or rather, wants to come back...),he touched my shoulders lightly...i knew wat he meant,but suddenly Al appeared *POOOF* beside me! I introduced Al to Mr.Tan...he gave me a puzzled 'I-Do-Not-understand-This-Who-Is-This-Guy?' disappointed look...then *POOOF* he disappeared,leaving Al n me.
Is it a sign? Hav i finally closed tat chapter n moved on? Tidied up e loose threads? I felt a little sad tat he's 'leaving' me...afterall we shared sm wonderful memories...When u loved sm1,u'll alwis love tat someone...u jus changed the 'Lovey Dovey love' for tat someone to the 'I wish u are well' kinda love...u'll alwis have a soft spot for tis one person u once loved n love...
somehow i feel glad tat i had this dream...somehow...
Today Al took me to have Xmas lunch with his sec sch pals...YUMMY Jap restaurant with SUPa yum Sukiyaki!
Overeat again! Chuiz! I better start jog9 again or i'll be back to Round1! Lunch was casual,though i was quite nervous actually. They must hav had a million gathering w Al n HQ...they mus have been great pals with her,nw a new girl?! Will I be scrutinised? Smhw i felt Al's chapters with HQ nt fully closed...no closure,& girls(usually) need closure... what if she comes back... we need to KISS for things like this...
Well,I must say they are all nice nice pple,easy to get along with...i'm surprised by my willingness to be open, get to knw more pple-me aint social animal...I am actually very particular with who I spend my spare time with... I also have very little time for myself.... I need Me-Time, read newspaper, eat toast bread, la Teh etc...
But I'm truly relieved,comforted,assured that I,JS Ng S M,is no longer a victim of being a Sunset/wkend girlfren! Yes, I feel like I used to be like that... I've had enough of all those nonsense!
Met up with Starry for dinner n movie
Niceee movie!
@ 1 point,it got really sensual...wooo0oo0...
@ 1 point,i teared,lost in thoughts....lost in my own world...the anguish for not being with that some1 you love,e courage to love someone so dangerous...e mixed feelings and all...haiz...
Today,i msned him 'l like u more than yest...' it took me alot of courage to type those words...then #%@#*!$,he had to ask me what i mean?! Ok,actually he was jus sitting behind me lah but...tis is the me now,i'm gona be 猫...wouldnt give away "my keys" so easily anymore... Sory dear,i'm tat broken and jaded...heal me =I
Even so, I am now mesmerised... swept off guard...
1 comment:
love is in the air~~~
time to post some AL pics..
*winkwink*
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