I had to break the news to him about Cookie, I feel responsible cos Xiong was the one who went with me to Meow/Adrian's house for viewing, he was with me when I first set eyes on lovely Cookie & Creamie & decided to bring them home with us.
When I explained to him what happened, he went on to try to slide open the window. He confirmed that it is rather difficult & heavy for a cat to be able to do that...I still cant believe Cookie is gone.
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At night, BroXiong msged me & we exchanged some smses:
"Yo Sis.Hope u r feeling better now. Ren Si Bu Ne Fu Sheng, Mai Si also the same. This is something non want it to happen. I guess it had paid the price of freedom. Or could it be paying for curiosity. Neither will bring it back to life. Besides, it had already enjoyed nine months of your abundant shower of love n care. God Blesses..."
"Thk u bro. Jus nw when I see u, I felt like hugging u n cry out. i cant cos I dun wanna scare Garren n papa. Cookie gone to be God's helper, make Him laugh, shower Him with the famous-cookie-rubba-rubba. God will bless him. Thank u for loving him n being with me. .."
"Ok. Will lend u my shoulders for u to cry on. But not so soon, if not will be soaking wet. That's y I chao so fast ma. Haha... Dont'think so much. Just learnt from Church camp, there may be animals in the new creation. As long as you remain in Christ n he in you, you will meet again. Mayb it went up to keep Yi Yi (Auntie Sammi)company 1st n Yi yi is taking care of it. Must be like that."
"Must be... =) Thanks man, feel better now knowing Yi yi will love him e way I do..."
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I don't remb my Bro Xiong to be one who so expressive, esp with our brother sister relationship. We are never the kind who hang during birthdays, xmases or even at the demise of our love ones... but for the past days, it was his smses that finally make me feel a teeny bit better...
I finally have some space alone to cry out aloud... express my agony... I finally had the opprty to explain to Creamie what happened to her Ge ge Cookie...
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Creamie showed some shows of disorientation last night when we were alone in the room... she dug through the storage container under the TV... she peeked into the carrier... she circled my bed, lingered for a long time looking under where my pillows... she was looking for Cookie, these were all his favourite spots. Looking puzzled, she finally settled down in the dark staring at the famous "Prince Cookie's Throne sofa seat", seemingly keep watch just in case Cookie decides to sneak up for his snooze.
I find my head having lotsa space on my pillow, Cookie used to plow himself right behind my head when I sleep, or on the pillow beside the one I am sleeping on. I find myself putting my hands out to wanna touch him at the Throne Seat, where he so loved to sleep in the most awkward positions...
I cleaned my room yesterday... tearing away wiping all the stain marks that Cookie left on the sliding door cupboards... he has a way of sliding them open even when I attempted to past velcro on them... I havent the heart to throw our the Ikea boxes he bite thru yet, I never quite had the oppty to catch him at it so I havent really punished him for this destructive act... but suddenly I wish he was around to chew these boxes... I suddenly wouldnt mind going all the way to ikea to buy new ones...
I suddenly wished I havent force cleaned his ears the last afternoon we spent together... he hated it but I had to do it as his get dirty quite easily & I had to do it every week... I suddenly wished I havent spent time reading papers in the morning- I could have played with him when he was trying to hide under my papers playing PeekaBoo... at least I took some photos...
I wished Cookie is still around... Cookie must be manja-ing with Auntie Sammi in Heaven...I havent dreamt of her since she passed on, I always wonder if Heaven is too pretty & fun for her to come into my dream to visit me...
Will I dream of Cookie?
Will the temptation of endless supply of Kitty Can food be too much for Cookie to resist?
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