Why I needed to be alone....

I am sorry I had to get away...

But please...please understand...
I hate for some1 to have to see me in my most vulnerable state...
Cos it hurts me to see my love one in this state too...
it's not a pretty sight... I dun wanna anyone to see me like that...
Especially not someone close like you...

Yet you saw it all...You were there...
saw me sobbing uncontrollably at night...
saw me eyes red when i came out from the shower...
saw my tears well up everything I think abt him...
you were there... I wanted to run away, but you held on to me...
Refused to let me go and be wolfed down by my misery...
The brave front I put up... for my family, for my creamie...
you saw right through me...

Please let me go... let me be in solitary...
Let me wallop myself up for what had happened...
Permit me to flood the gate of my tears...
Allow me to be in my own heart pain...

I may laugh when in company of others...
I may seem to function normally at work...
I may on the face of it behave customarily...
That's cos I can face others who havent seen nor know the true me...
They know me not the way you do...
You have known, the defenseless part of me...

Pardon me for my self-centeredness...
It's not that I do not know nor feel...
Please, I am Sory i seemed to ignored your pain too...
I simply am jaded, too jaded to offered you my weighted shoulders...

I will be back, soon...
Thank you my friend... =D