Today I mark New Territory, I DID IT!

Havent been feeling good... kinda Emo for the past couple of days still...
even Starry Stella's presence failed to cheer me up... haiz...

Paiseh Starry, the little one & Cool babe had disturbed ur sleep last nite & u had to wakey so early on a Sunday Morning + travel all the way back to AMK from Tamp.... Xie Xie you for your kind soul, ur tolerance for my erratic and extreme behaviour and mood...

Woke with a rather Heavy Heart this morning... after cooing Creamie to eat her food (nowadays it's a 30mins affair)...I prepared to leave the house for my Sunday Training.
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As usual, I swam my 40 laps (did in sets of 10 - else I will lose count the number of laps!), chit chatted with the life guard for a while & bike out... comtemplating very long the distance I should clock today.... last week I did 20kms& a 8km run, almost died - with a great running friend somemore, still my level is not there...
I finally decided to do 40km.... then I will consider the distance to run...

When I covered my 40km (zhun zhun 40.1km when reached my lift lobby!), I decided to follow the advice of my friend, to rest abit 1st before venturing out.... slowed down my transition...

When I ran, I had alot going through my pea sized brains... would he be there to me meet to jog (as we had briefly toked abt to meet for the running part).... he was not there...
When I struggled to reach BR, I was half hoping to see him there... he was not there either...
have I lost a friend? Someone I could confide in? Was it my own folly? I couldnt help but start to blame myself again for all the unhappiness that had happened... haiz...

Anyway, I really struggled all the way... still contemplating the distance to cover, then in my own frustration & unhappiness, I decided to do the full 10km! My heartrate was exceptionally high (compared to if I had just jogged, & not did all the other swimming & biking segments)... it was high all the way, my legs could still last me I feel, but I fear for my heart... haiz...

Oh, I had 1 pkt of Power Gel (Brand: Gu Gel - Chocolate favour w Caffine) consumed over the whole training session today. The last few times I couldnt complete the run segment(or rather I didnt wanna risk injury) cos I was too dehydrated & really not strength (1st time) and bad stitches from too much isotonic drink(2nd time).

Today, I was prepared...
Today, I conquered myself... I mark new Territory... I set a New today....
I know it's teeny weeny achievements compared to others, but to me it's a GREAT achievement.... when I finished the 10km... I wanna shout to the person who has been running with me: I DID IT! THANK YOU! Of cos, he wasnt there... haiz... some kinda emptiness....

Anyway, here goes for the new mark...

Swim 40Laps (2km):
1st 10laps - 12:09 (12:09),
2nd 10 - 12:40 (24:50),
3rd 10 - 13:03 (37:54),
Last 10 - 13:19 (51:14)
Transition: 15:37 (1:06:50)
Bike 40km:
1:44 (2:51:15)
Transition: 6:54 (2:58:10)
Run 10Km:
2.2km (home to BR CP) :18:01 (3:16:11)
4km : 25:23 (3:41:35)
Last 4km: 25:20 (4:06:55)

All in all, it took me 4hrs 7mins.... my Sunday is burnt....my legs are kaput.... my heart is aching...
Hopefully this "pleased with myself" feeling can last me abit longer....

till next training session.... =)