*YAWN*
Woke up kinda late this morning... met up with a new friend at Changi Airport T3 last nite! Finally, I went there! It was an impromptu thingy decided over MSN at ard 10pm and off we dashed! Surprisingly it took only 15mins to go there on public transport!! WOW!
Beautiful place, surprisingly bright at night time! Bought Chocolates! No tainted milk, Gteed! Cos it's a "PRODUCT OF GERMANY" and limited edition too! Indulge in a bit of Cocoa, my fav Dark (Noir) and Peppermint ones!! Alas, no orange or marmalade ones! Nonetheless, I am HAPPY!
Had a Great chat... subjects from work, family, background, friends etc! I wasn't feeling too good so thanks for cheering me up Ben! And thanks for the Cakes and Juice too! I ain't the Arty Farty type, but we spent quite long time discussing about Arts, in particular Renaissance arts... the old school type!
Went for a swim...Scorching hot afternoon sun! Always love the water... soak away my troubles...
Today is D-Day... was so mad at Mr.Tan... still the reactive person... not pro-active enough! Told him on Sunday, that specifically by Thursday I would like have back my stuff... come thursday and still no news! ABSURB! How long should I wait?! How long MUST I wait!? Argh! My life dun revolve around waiting for my stuff to come u know! Shouldn't your love ones comes in precedence over work?! If you are efficient in your work, nice towards your boss, colleagues..... should u be doing EXTRA for your love ones? THIS IS NOT PR-ing!!! Then I reminded myself this, YOU ARE NOT LONGER LOVE ONE... Yah, have gotten remember this!
Anyway, so he came, met him at the lift landing...
1) didnt wanna go meet him at the car park (dun wanna give him the chance to show off his new car to me)
2) didnt wanna him to help me bring up the stuff (dun wanna him to know abt Cookie n Creamie anymore! HECK!)
3) Couldnt look him in the eye, I simply cant imagine how we can come to this stage.... how I can be so hurt by this person I loved so much... cant look him in the eye... our conversation was just my mumbling of "Thanks", "Thanks" and "Byee"...
So I lugged the many bags... probably 4 bags of files, books and notes,1 bag of clothes, 1 bag of rubbish stuff, 1 pair of rollerblades... 1 word... heavy! but it cant be compared to the how heavy my jaded heart felt... haiz... i'm so chuiz! BUT CHUIZ NO MORE! YAY!
As I was unpacking... I can't help but wonder...
it had taken so much time to accumulate the so much stuff at his place... mind u, it was at least 8 trips (excluding to and fro) from his place to mine when I moved back! It took so long, so slowly... yet overtime... the stuff piled up, yet it took me just half a day to unpack when I moved home. And just now, 30mins to unpack the last of the items and pack away those memories...
Amazing... amazing how relationship can take so long to build, the trust, commitment, communication... u work darn hard... yet *POOOOF* it can be gone, so quickly, so easier.... u just have to walk away from it.... damn fragile!
Anyway, I am half glad, half sadden... will I love again? will I be loved again...? My dearie Ewan said that I will! She promised! Hope it's true.... cos after this episode, I wouldn't dare believe the magic of Love anymore... nah...
2 comments:
Our next next date at the airport too k!
Love is selfish. I only realised it damn now too. Hang on there k, dun ever give up..have faith in urself n this wonderful thing called Life. Nothing beats being alive and breathing..every exp is an exp worth living..*HUGGS*
That's why I lup u dip dip Starry!
After going through so much, u have never given up on hope and continue to inspire me!
I must and WE must love ourselves more!!
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