Plans for today:
-Sleep in late!
-Do work!
-Visit Wendy's Parents!
-Meet Mr.A at kona's lessons, thereafter go KovanMelody for a swim!
abt 11am - Mr.A msged say not going Kona's lesson cos he's got the sore throat, but he need to get someting from KM still. Asked if I need a lift to KM. I said no need cos going Wendy's place, it's near. We agreed to meet at 4pm at KM's gate.
I was so engrossed in my work stuff & by the time I realised the time.... I was running late! I had wanted to be at Wendy's hse earlier so I can spend more time with her parents but alas!
1.59pm - msged Mr.A to bring his Lappy (show me his race photos) & I'll bring my HD cos need to trf some files over. No reply from him
2pm - Bathe
2.10pm - Left hse
2.55pm - Reached Hougang, bought desserts, walked to Wendy's
3.05pm - reached Wendy's (parents are well, happy =) )
3.23pm - Wanna spend more time with her parents, but meeting Mr.A. Msged him I'll be late, meet him 4.15pm instead.
4pm - left Wendy's hse with much reluctance, took bus to KM (abt 5 bustops away)
4.09pm - 1 bus stop away, Mr.A msged that he couldnt find the access card to go KM, if I wanna go Public pool instead or just go Heartland Mall.
I immediately called him... only to learnt that he's just left his home... I asked again in disbelief....cfm: Queenstown Home not KM home.... I thought really hard but quickly... I told him that we shant meet anymore today & I'll just head home.
Lotsa questions ran thru my brains:
1) Why did he not prepare the Access Card last nite since he already planned to go KM today?
2) Why did he not reply that he will be late at 3.25pm! I was still worrying that he might have left the house & had to wait for me at KM's guardhouse!
3) At 4.09pm, still can msg me! What if I was already walking there or arrived? Why couldnt he just call!? can still msg somemore!
4) To think that he knows I Hate to wait (& have waited for him -without any news, for more once!), he can still do this!?
5) To think that I was so foolish to stop by (despite having a rush schedule) to buy some throat lozenge, pack my HD n doggy poo bags I bot for him... not to mention that I had almost wanted to rush to buy some Liang Teh at Kovan 1st before I walk over KM! Luckily I didnt! Else I would really be a Fool!
6) Did he expect me to wait another bloody 30mins for him at KM since he had just left his house?!
*WTFish!* NO WAY!
7) If he is really interested in some1, he will try all means to impress the person! Not push that person away, worse to irk her with the most impt Character trait that she values!
Oh man... The question-with-no-answer-list goes on & on...
I did a quick visit to mother & Aunty Leo at heartland mall... left Kovan in abt 10mins time....
1hr bus ride home... I kept thinking.... & i got more & more pissed n upset! Almost burst into tears!
4.53pm - "Heyz... sorry to disappoint u."
Haiz... does this guy even know why I would be disappointed? Was it not being able to swim at KM (he was really exicited to show me KM's pool & had repeatedly wanna bring me there-I think he'll be more disappt then me), OR I was disappointed in him...
I admit, I totally lost it! Starry Stella can vouch for that! Ok, I know I am quick tempered! But I simmer down fast too! But that doesnt mean that I cant remain disappointed, irked, disgusted by what had happened! I totally blasted away on the phone with Starry....
p.s.Starry, sorry gal - u had to take the blurt of it! Thanks for always listening to me me ramble... =I
End of the day, I finally figured something. The truth hurts but reality is in my face! This guy is probably not interested in me at all... bleah!
That was the only explanation I could think of (since he is not offering any for his absurb behaviour).
My thoughts:
1) Men dun change, they will never change - so he'll probably always be rubberband-timing-man
2) I dun wanna change! Punctuality is basic courtesy n respect! My ground is firm right from day 1, why should I change!?
3) I aint letting some guy walk all over me again this time! Take control Soya! I need to love myself more this time round!
Starry asked if now the point score is Zero, I said it's in major Deficit... there need to be some major brownie points Bailout man.... else it's all going down down down....
So the next question, should I cut my lossess now? Hmmm..... it's not too late... it's never too late to do anything! Brave it Soya! YAY!
2 comments:
the Godfather had said, dun be so readily available all the time. U'll end up losing. Its already very obvious to him if he wants u, 90% of the battle is won. Over here in Sicily, its all about power struggle; same as in relationship.
Well, the GodFather has spoken!
Well said well said!
Seek the Guru's advice & all will be well!
Thanks! =)
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