A Story *The Daughter* PART IV

PART IV


The next few days went in a flash, seeing Cousin Bi so distressed; Mei took charge of the funeral affairs. This was the first time that Mei had to deal with the Casket, funeral parlour, the crematorium etc., but she felt that Aunty Sam was with her throughout. Everything was simple, just like hope Aunty Sam would have wanted it. She was a quiet woman or little words. During the wake, Mei was repeatedly told by Aunty Sam’s friends what a wonderful woman she was, Mei felt comforted that her “mummy” was such a great woman!

Naturally Mei’s mother was at the wake. She had repeatedly pulled Mei along when she went round the tables of relatives and her friends. At each table, she would repeat this: “This is my daughter, Mei! She is very close to my sister since young! But she is never close to me at all!! Since my sister passed on, Mei has been so sad. I am pretty sure when I die, she will not be as sad as she is now…”

Little did she know Mei had always had the same nightmare every time she has a disagreement with her boyfriend, her father or even her mother. She will wake up in cold sweat, sometimes scream herself awake in the middle of the night – having the same nightmare. She would dream the scenes of her mother crashing the wedding photo frame into pieces. She will again see her sitting across the edge of the kitchen window, half her body in the house, the half dangling outside. She will be on the floor with Hao, kneeing down on the kitchen floor and begged her to come. For years, she has this dream…

Their relationship was so strained that Mei felt like a battery plugged to a discharging station whenever she attempt to hold a conversation with her mother. So much so that Mei avoided seeing her mother, except on Chinese New Year. Luckily for Mei, her mother didn’t cause her too much distressed when she had a pushcart stall business near the bank she was working in. Mei’s mother would visit her sometimes, a couple of times sobbing at her open concept cubicle in full view of the bank customers. All these Mei could take it, because for Mei, those were the better experiences already. So Mei had a philosophy about visiting her mother, she would judge her “battery life” that day, if it’s at least 80% full, she can live through the whole “discharging” process because by then, she would have been left with just 30% – She could still afford the downtime.

Mei’s mother has been having problems with her husband for a couple of years now. Many times, Mei’s mother would complain to her about her husband that he is after her hard earned money, which he is trying to kill her for. She cooked up bizarre stories that even Mei found it hard to believe her own mother. Mei tries to detach herself from this negative energy that drains her emotions, so she avoids her mother almost totally. Sensing Mei’s detachment, her husband has been calling Mei’s brothers, Yong and Hao, very often. Their mother got into trouble of being drunk, vomiting her lungs out at home; banging her head on the wall till it bleeds etc.

No matter how detached Mei tries to tell herself to be, she cannot help but feel a need to know her mother’s latest progress. She gets updates from her brothers whenever some “commotion” happened. Mei had to endure hearing things like their 80yrs old Grandfather had to clean his daughter up after she got drunk again puking all over her own clothes. Her mother’s senseless behaviour on one occasion led to having the police involved. Her husband had called the police when she threatens to kill herself-again for the umpteenth times. Since committing suicide is a criminal offence and they could not subdue her, she was sent to the mental hospital. She had to be kept in observation and there a few outcomes. First, she gets charged if she is deeming to be in right state of mind by the hospital. Second, the charges will be dropped if she is diagnosed to be mentally unsound. Lastly, she will not be charged, but has to be put under close home supervision and medication. Mei ought to be sad, but she is disgusted by the doings.

During the next day consultation to discharge her, she created such a nuisance at the doctor’s office demanding IMMEDIATE discharge. This deemed her not mentally unstable, hence could not be discharged – she was kept over the weekend. Come Monday, she was finally discharged in the morning, but by evening, she got herself into trouble again. She had gone to her in-law’s place and banged her head against the wall in protest and self destruction that she was sent to the hospital again. Mei’s brothers rushed to hospital late at night to make sure she was ok, although Mei was with her brothers when they received the call, she did not go to the hospital with them.

Mei had problems sleeping each time she comes to know of the nonsensical things that her mother had committed again. She cannot reconcile why her own mother will try to her love ones… didn’t she ruin Mei and her brothers’ lives already? Why would she want to ruin her only lawful son’s life now? Mei even had evil thoughts of wishing her own mother was dead, so that she will finally stop disrupting her life and her brothers’ lives! Mei went to the extent that she does not wish for her name to be put in the newspaper obituary should the time come. She wished she was disowned, and then she wouldn’t find it hard to be cold hearted.

Mei can’t help but wonder if her mother was desperate for attention, maybe even for Mei’s attention. Maybe Mei had a part to play in all these; maybe she had neglected her mother’s feelings by being closer to her own sister rather than her. Could Mei do more to prevent this whole catastrophe from evolving? It pains Mei to see her brothers in distress, so affected by the whole episode, but she made up her mind not to “care”.

She remembers someone telling her this: A person who really wishes to take his life will not tell any tales of it. He will just do it, mainly because he is afraid that thru persuasion, he will give up the idea. So maybe Mei’s mother does not have the intention to take her own life at all, she merely needed to be shown TLC by her children. Since she is having so many problems with her husband, Mei wonders why her mother did not take the easy way out – a second divorce. Maybe it was the love she still harbours for her husband, or maybe it was sheer pride and ego that stopped her from doing so.

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Life is Good!

Happy with my swim yesterday! YAY!

Laps Training:

1st 10 laps: 11:51
2nd 10laps: 12:16
3rd 10laps: 12:38
Last 10laps: 12:52
Total: 49:39

Remarks:
-Tried Froggy kim's suggestion of pulling toward ur body n down for this session.
-Havent been swimming for the past 3 wks, pleasantly surprised that it was quite a relaxed swim.
-oBjective meant : Lap swimming

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Had lunch with Starry this afternoon at her office, totally made my day...

Thanks dearie, for always bringing me comfort with simply.... just PRESENCE....

Wauu, food is really expensive at Tanjong Pagar man! My Mixed Vege rice costed my $5.50! Faint!
Looking at all the OLs, I really dun wanna return to the rat race! very scary lah! I dun wanna think abt it lah! faint!

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Happy with my jog today! YAY!

Training:
-Home to BR 2.2km: 18:47

-BR-4km(Total:6.2km): 25:35
-BR-4km(Total:10.2km): 25:41
-BR-4km(Total:14.2km): 25:58
-BR-4km(Total:18.2km): 25:39

Total Time took: 2:01:40


Avg speed:
-6min40sec/km (taken into consideration for traffic lights for 1st 2.2km to BR)
-6min26sec/km (for right route pacing) - very decent =D


Remarks:
-Very good mood today to jog! weather was humid in the beginning but turned cooling later. No Stitches! WOOHOO!
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Come back from jog, my trade got hit. A gd hit for the target I set. Though may be able to get more, I am satisfied with the results n correct analysis! Most imptly is analysis, when analysis is correct... winning is a just by-product or result! Happy happy! More to come for me pls!

Well, at least things are back to norm, at least for me - emotionally n physically!


Feeling very good now... lalala! =D

*敗犬女王* Good ah!

Have been chasing this show on youtube lately...

*敗犬女王* (the Queen)

So damn good lah!

*What will happen when Shan Wu Shuang, a 33 year old beautiful, hardworking yet single woman, meets Lucas, a 25 year old romantic and handsome regular worker? There is an 8 year age difference – what kind of story would then be created? A story that will let us laugh and let us cry. I’m not defeated! I’m the Queen!What will happen when Shan Wu Shuang, a 33 year old beautiful, hardworking yet single woman, meets Lucas, a 25 year old romantic and handsome regular worker? There is an 8 year age difference – what kind of story would then be created? A story that will let us laugh and let us cry. I’m not defeated! I’m the Queen!*

Gotta love those eyebrows n cute smile!

I like her dressing on show.... mature woman, stylish & comfy... =D

Next show:  * 命中註定我愛你 *Fated to Love You *

Stay tuned! =D

Soya will Back! Beware!!

Finally I did the interval trg assigned to me since beginning this week!
Time to get serious again abt training! Must get back to the pool too!

Luckily i have a great company to jog with me today! Bro Xiong!
Woooohooo!

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Thanks to my many great friends... i always know I am loved by u all lah! wuahaahahah! Gam Siah k to all who showed ur care & concern!! MUCKS!

Anyway, I kinda 低估 (under estimate) Bro Xiong's understanding of my character. He told me nonchalantly that he knew I will not be ok when he called me on Sunday afternoon....

He had actually called me at 1.30pm on Sunday afternoon to ask me something, he sounded surprised when i told him I was sleeping. I answered his queries n hung up. He didnt say anything then. Until last nite when I confided in him what happened, he told me he saw the news & knew abt it.

During our jog just now, he revealed that he already knew something went wrong, that's why I was sleeping on a Sunday afternoon.... he jokingly said that he didn even have to read my blog! how cool is that!

But hey! Why cant I be sleeping on a lazy Sunday afternoon?!!! My life so salted-vege meh, must slog away cleaning the room etc.?!

Hahah! nevertheless, I am Pleasantly surprised that my brother knows me so well!

Hey all my precious friends, worry not k! Soya is back and bouncing in action! I have a love-hate relationship with Bedok Res! I hate it when I am jogging, yet I love it when I complete the run... today, I dumped all the unhappiness and sadness there too!

Sayonara! Soya braves New World!

I'm back.... BEWARE! wooooo.....=D

Give me some air...

Last evening, I finally dragged myself outa the house to do some jogging…

When I returned, papa was very excited & told me that he saw him on TV. Papa asked & I cfmed his chinese name is correct. He was interviewed briefly during news timing when they reported on property launches & pple paying high prices for new projects amidst the property sizzle.

I was not surprised to know of him visiting such property launches or making a payment for it. After all, he had always lived the high society lifestyle. I tot that I was prepared to see him in “person” after so many years... I last saw him on 5thAug2008.

Papa had not voluntarily mention his name ever since, though I tried to make papa feel that I am ok with the mention of his name. I would pop his name up for eg. which restaurant he had brought us there before, which movie liked that is same as papa etc… all just so papa will feel that I am ok. But still, papa always avoid mentioning or participating in contributing anything that has to do with him. I looked at Creamie n rembed that Papa had finally succumbed to me keeping pets after decades, cos he couldnt bear to see me continuing to drown in my own sorrow...

When the repeat telecast of the news came on, Linda quickly called to me to watch. To be honest, I was blown away. I did not catch what he was saying on TV, nor was he fatter or thinner. All I noticed was there was another woman beside him & he was wearing a shocking Pink top. I lost my footing, not just for the 10mins after that…for the next 10hrs or more…

I tried to take my mind off by watching Taiwanese romance comedy drama online till 2+am, but I know I was only afraid to be left alone with an unoccupied mind to think of the past….

Knowing him, the woman beside him has only gota be his gf or wife… someone he is very sure of to show off to the world. I was curious if he is happy with this new person. I wanted to know so many things abt him… the life he has now… the life he has, without me… 他过的好吗?

曾经曾经 , we also went to view a property launch… I remb he had deliberately “hide” the brochures in the car 1st becos we ran into some of his colleagues nearby.

曾经曾经, we too shopped for a new soda, new bed, pillow, matteress, bed linens, appliances etc for the new house… I even had the choice of the curtain colours…

曾经曾经, he also once told me that he tot that I will be a gd mother to his children…

曾经曾经… 曾经曾经 now meant nothing. It’s already “曾经曾经…”
Now, he is doing all these for a woman he loves... & the woman is not me....

I duno why, but I wept sadly into my pillow for very long last nite… I said my night’s prayers in tears & ask God to take away all my sorrow… after so many years… have I not already given up?

Although we were only tog for a short time… is 1.5yrs short? I guessed one of the reasons why my heart goes to him is the fact that he had allowed me a glimpse of the future we could have tog… the life, the goals, the family we can share tog… & when all these ideals were not longer feasible… my life feels very “wasted” without him…

A few had come along after him… but none can fill that void he left behind… but yet I know clearly, he is not the right one God has chosen for me… God would have reserved a God fearing one for me… I know deep down, even if things go back to where it was, I would have made the same decision and not look back.

Then why I am I feeling so sad… maybe cos it’s the “曾经拥有”的痛…

I have not cried so much since Cookie’s death… the last time I took the effort to on the indiglo light on my watch, it was 07:04. I experienced something I did again to Starry… Sory Gal, I still cant let u hear “ME” when I am at my weakest… U are too dear to me, I dun wanna let u hear, see, or feel me that way…


When finally decided to get my ass outa bed this afternoon, the 1st thing I did was to flip the newspaper & tried to catch abit more info on him. I found it in the chinese morning papers… “…他和太太…” … so they just put their names down for a 1.58million 2-bedroom apartment in Altez… too much information… enough information.

Now I confirm, 他过的好…很好…

My heart feels alittle 酸酸, alittle 痛痛…

Haiz…豆大姐, 看开点吧!

Me the Kitty O-Ba-San!

Chuiz.... 1st jog of the new year (lunar)... i gave up half way...

supposed to run 4 Sets of 4km with 3minutes rest in between... in the end, only managed to do 2 sets & i succumbed to fatigue n hot weather. shagged.

Plus, supa no discipline lah! Havent been waking up early for the past weeks.... since morning Asian trading session not much actions lately, have been allowing myself to wake up like 7.30, 8am sometimes even 9am!

Plus plus, havent been sleeping on time! have been working OT on my lappy till abt midnite, then read & fall asleep only ard 1am, last nite I probably dozed off at 2am. Shagged.

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Finally done up with the kitty basket on FOREST!

Some DIY from DAISO!

Flip top cover...

When secured properly...

Thanks to non-permanent cable ties!

Can release quickly w "lock" + comes in nice colours!

Cool! I am the O-Ban-San who brings her cats to marketing & to the park!

A Story *The Daughter* PART III

PART III


All these while, Aunty Sam has been of most help. She was the one who accompanied Mei to buy her first Bee Dees bra and panties, taught her about using sanitary pads, etc… all the woman stuff whom Mei couldn’t and wouldn’t ask her father… Although Aunty Sam is the sister of Mei’s mother, she never sided with anyone who was in the wrong – she was this righteous and impartial.

One day, Mei vaguely remembered that her mother asked to meet her at Tanjong Pagar. She didn’t know where they were going, until they stepped into a law firm. Her mother has changed her mind and wanted to gain the custody of Mei. Mei’s mother was nudging her to tell the lawyer in charge the “truth”, that Mei wants to be with her mother. She could only hear that “Girl! Tell this uncle that you want to live with me! Quick, tell uncle! C’mon, if it’s coming from the kid’s mouth! Surely the judge will believe! Don’t you want to come live with me?! Tell Uncle you want to do that! ” She couldn’t remember what happened next, but she gets to stay with her father, and her two brothers.

The impact on the entire trauma took toil on Mei and her brothers. Mei and Hao barely made it to Secondary school as they only got the passing mark for PSLE. Yong did not do well for his GCE ‘O’ Levels that year either.

One day when Mei was about 12, her father brought her and Hao to a Funfair! Mei couldn’t remember the last time their father brought them out so they were really excited! They were also introduced to an Aunty, they greeted her and were presented with one big box of Roche’s chocolate each – Mei thought “WOW!” For the first time, they were in a Funfair ride with their father! They sat in the Ferris wheel and exclaimed in joy how fun it was!

Aunty Guay later became Mei’s stepmother. Things were uneventful until one day Mei’s mother wanted to return to her father. It was rather crazy, Mei actually welcomed the idea, or renting a room to her mother, so the whole family can be back to before! Except that Aunty Guay was lawfully Mei’s mother now. Anyway, this didn’t materialise and many years later, Mei was thankful for that.

Mei’s mother later remarried and had a boy. Their relationship strained when she felt that her mother was showing double standards for the young boy. Being 15years younger than Mei, she was trying to instil some discipline into the toddler, but her mother and her husband interfered. When Mei was about 17, she remembered telling her mother that she will washed her hands off the boy’s matter since they didn’t like her disciplining their darling boy. And she did just that – the daughter-mother relationship just went downhill from that point onwards.

All these while, Aunty Sam watched Mei and her brothers grow up. She was their pillar of support whenever they needed someone to talk to, needed a parent’s advice. Aunty Sam had another daughter, Ming, who was 12 years younger than Mei and Cousin Bi. When Ming was three, Aunty Sam and Uncle Yong got a divorce. Reason? He had taken a liking for a younger girl, 6 years his daughter’s senior- hopefully to boost his chance of getting an heir for this family name. Hah! People can come up with any reasons just to get away with bad things they do! Despite Aunty Sam’s painful experience, she remained a strong woman, bringing up her two beautiful girls!

When Mei was working already, she often spent time at Aunty Sam’s place. Despite their age gap, Mei looked to Aunty Sam as a close friend, her soul mate, her confidante. Mei remembers Aunty Sam taking a long bus journey to buy the yummiest Mango cake from the now-defunct Jack’s place at Kovan Heartland Mall. She NEVER forgets anyone’s birthday, because she genuinely cares for the person. Mei was even closer to Aunty Sam then to her two female cousins, of course, she was closer to Aunty Sam than to her own mother. On one occasion, she decided to tag along with Aunty Sam to meet her mother for some shopping. Mei’s mother not knowing that she will be going was 15minutes late without informing Aunty Sam. When she finally arrived, Mei told her own mother off for being late, irresponsible, inconsiderate and disrespectful of other’s time!

Mei had always felt guilty about not visiting her mother as often as she visits or goes out with Aunty Sam. She could not hold a proper conversation with her mother without flaring up. Especially when her mother mocked her by saying that Mei was mixed up with Cousin Bi at birth (since they were the same age!) and that’s why Mei was closer to Aunty Sam and Cousin Bi was more like her.

Mei was 28yrs old when Aunty Sam passed on suddenly… that August, Mei had received a call at night telling her that Aunty Sam had fainted at home and was sent to the nearest hospital A&E by ambulance. When Mei rushed down, Cousin Bi and Ming were panic-stricken. Aunty Sam was unconscious and had slipped into a coma. We were later told that she suffered a stroke and could not even be moved to the ICU as her conditions were not stable enough to even move ward. Mei and Cousin Bi had the permission as next of kin to see her in the A&E ward, just in case … she dun make it. After a long wait, her blood pressure finally stabilised and was transferred to the ICU, she had not regained conscious. For the next 10 days, Aunty Sam remained in the ICU, there were no brain activities and she was on life support system. The doctors had consulted Cousin Bi and Mei about their intentions, to pull or not pull the plug. They decided to reduce the medication that sustains the blood pressure level and if her body can fight back, there is a chance; else she will leave in peace.

Within a couple of days, Aunty Sam left. Not without her nephew, niece and daughters (Mei, Yong, Cousin Bi and Ming) bidding their farewells first. Mei and Yong being the older of the “children” promised Aunty Sam that they will look out for Cousin Bi and Ming always and that Aunty Sam can leave in Peace. This was the first time Mei see her eldest cool headed brother cried so badly.

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1st elaborated cake i baked!

Today's Bro Xiong's Bday!

I have long decided to bake him a cake, but was worried abt the busy CNY schedule + my skills!
U see, my prince n princess have been so used to cakes from Secret Recipe, Sweet Secrets, Royals etc.... my homebaked cake may just be a tad too ...LC for them lah!

So I set abt to make a very chocolaty cake, hoping at least they will give the chocolat some face!

1st, check the fridge - see got what fruits to use! =D

2nd, check the ingredients - alas, couldnt get Self raising flour from the store b4 CNY (outa stock), so decided to ask my "Best friend" google for the ratio to mix my own Self Raising flour!

3rd, make advance "booking" for the kitchen!

All set & ready to go!

*Interesting method of beating over a "double boiler" of simmering water...

Supposed to make sure it's thick & flowy!

Mix the cocoa, butter & flour mixture...

Got OR-LING! =D

Chocolate & Orange! BEST COMBI!

*Rind of 1 X or-ling

Mix & Pop it in!

Make the icing for the chocolate spread!

*Lotsa Butter n Tudor Gold dark chocolate!

Cake is baked & nicely dome-d shaped!

1st layer of 3, chocolat icing +

almond (since have some in the fridge)!

After piecing tog 2 more layers!

DECOR:

Shaved some white chocolate +

dark chocolate +

got some cherries in the fridge!

Heart shaped cherries really made some difference to the plain cake (though it's not very red, more like deep purple in colour)!

*Got some more left over chocolate shavings, spread it ard the edges of the cake!

VIOLA!

*Erm... dun ask me if the cake is supposed to look like this... cos I impromptu tot of the design myself.... I just piece them up along the way... used up most of my creativity juice, now the level very low liao!

*FAINT!

Ok, can ask me if the cake is nice... =D

other than it's a little too dry (I made it 1 day in advance + put in fridge + mayb can put some milk). the icing were so yummy! I still have some leftover to spread on bread (use like nutella spread! SINFUL!)

Overall, the cake was yummilicious!

Best of all, bro xiong liked it very much, he was happy not cos the cake was very yummy, but cos this is the 1st cake that was baked specially for him... somemore by his own younger sis! He was rather touched... =D Me? I'm happy cos I made him happy!

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!

*Phew.... now I can dip my finger into the tube of chocolaty icing & lick my fingers off!

It's Chinese New Year...=D

Frankly, I have never really enjoyed chinese new year celebration beyond the age of 16years old... the amount of ang pow money I received over the years has been Grossly Inversely Proportionate to my Age... beyond a certain age, u start to have to fork out even more money to buy ur own new year clothings and it's just not a lucrative "ang pow generating business" anymore!

Of cos, the "cute-factor" has a great influence on the "size" of the ang pow too! Unfortunately, this is on a Directly Proportionate scale! ARGH!

To make things worse, my life has not been easy beyond the age of 25 when all the aunties n uncles whom u only see once a year, have problem remembering ur name or the job u have been holding for the last 10yrs, suddenly become SUPA concerned with your eternal happiness (终身幸福)!

This year is rather special, my family is hosting the whole extended family from the paternal side... for the 1st time! actually I wasnt really excited, cos first of all - i dun think they will like cats.... the last thing I need is for them to comment to my papa that my room is smelly, furry, cats are irky etc. secondly, I dun really like to entertain pple whom i am not close too.. i run outa topics to tok abt, c'mon-I only see these pple once year, twice the max! I will 冷场 lah!

But I think my papa is really excited but that only made Linda a very stress woman! For days, I have seen her clean the house like she never did! All the little corners that she "conveniently" missed over the years, she suddenly see them all! She was cleaning Ferociously! She visited the market on an average of 3 times in 6hrs PER DAY for the last 3-4days... making trips back with Trolley-full of food stuff etc. she even employed the help of her brother to cook some dishes & send them over like catering siah! faint!  that's how stressed she was!

For me, I just made sure my room as "fur-less" as possible! Kekek! that's abt it! I was concerned that they wouldnt like cats, so I decided to make my kitties "cuter", in tuned with the Tigger Year, I decided to make some CNY clothes for them!

1st I wanted to make something "Tiggerish".... The print I had in mind was this....

I suddenly got very excited & turned on the lamp when I was already in bed...

& Sketched this on the nearest post-it pad I can get my hands on!

Sketches...

The next morning, I went out to try to get the material I wanted! But alas, after running to a few nearby market, I couldnt get wat I want! in the end, I got these...

It's just 2 drawstring bags (shd be for oranges bah)!

I feel like a mother in the olden days, whereby u buy cloth as gifts n let ur kids choose the material they llike before tailoring it into clothes!

Nugget choosing his "material" for CNY!

Creamie cant decide which colour she will look nicer in!

Nugget still cant decide!

He's thinking very hard now....

This is the time when I really wish I have a sewing machine! Cos I had to sew the pieces together by hand, stitch by stitch! OMG! *FAINT!*

Finally....

For my 大女儿 creamie....tadah!

& for my 小儿子 Nugget!

Trying them on!

Model Creamie!

Model Nugget!

I seriously think that's how the term Cat-Walk comes abt!

Please give ur hand to our models! *CLAP*CLAP*

To my surprise too, my typical chinese-cat-disliking-relatives are not wat I think they are!

They likey my kiddos! Very much & spent a long time playing with them! They started to reminisce their own experiences of their pet dogs n cats when they were younger etc... how they missed their pets n babies!

Turning 30 this year also suddenly became a breeze at the annual CNY gathering... phew.... they focused their attention mainly on my kiddos, my new 1 month old nephew, my road bike & the impressive bike tower, how clean n spacious my room is... they even accepted my single-mum-status! fierce, fiercely unexpected!

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Our annual family portrait!

Xiong's Family!

Edwards' n wife Ariel!

Cousin Bi, her fiancé, Wei n cousin Ming!

(*Baby Gabrian on Loan basis! =P)

They all beckon me to take our own photos! But I asked them with "who siah?!"

They also duno what to say then they say with ur children lah! Wuahaah!

Shd have tot of it, except that I am the family's photographer leh! Who will take for me!?

Faint!

What a chinese new year, i ate countless pieces of Bah Kwa... pineapple tarts... cans n cans of "bird's nest" can drink, bowls of pig intestine soup, shark's fin w fish maw soup, ice cold cheng teng, almond jelly w sea coconut... keropok...lotsa peaches n cherry... curry chicken...

Aiyah....it's alot alot alot of FOOD lah!

Nonstop eating till nite when the last guest left the house at 9.30pm....

With so much food calories to burn off & being the cleanliness freak that I am, I attempted to do some "exercise" and mopped my room floor + cleaned all the surface top with dettol before i dropped on my bed n K.O-ed at 10.30pm....

Wat a MERRY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

A Story *The Daughter* PART II

 *The Daughter*

PART II


These went on for a while and Mei thought that things finally settled down when she was about 10. Her parents were finally getting a divorce, custody of the three children were all given to her father. In a normal divorce, normally the mother gets the children, especially when the father clocks a mean 16hours work per day. In Mei’s case, it was slightly complicated. Mei has come to learnt that all those frantic attempts to file for a divorce were so her mother could continue to be with another guy. It was only logically she didn’t want a bunch of kids tagging along with her.

At 10, divorce was still a rather big English word to Mei, she first learn the word through watching a Channel8 drama serials – she learned English by reading the subtitles so she knew the word long before she could pronounce it. At 10, she hardly knew anyone in her neighbourhood school that has experienced what she did. At 10, she felt really lonely and “despised” to be the odd one out. She started to withdraw from her group of friends but only one whom was closest to her.

She would leave the house earlier in the morning to meet Ling at her home en route to school, and then together, they will go to school. And after school ended, she will loiter at her place till about evening time... she had no choice but to go home because it was not nice to impose on people’s dinner and family time, and also this is the only time someone would be coming home already – this means that she will not be alone in house.

Mei and her brothers had to hide from their father whenever they went out to meet their mother… it was like police and thief game, the thief gets interrogated whenever he returns home. Some time when Mei was 11, her mother asked to meet her at a place around Rochor Canal road; she has never ventured so far beyond on her own. She only knew to take the bus number her mother instructed her to, and counted the number of stops to alight. It was a “messy” place there.

Mei’s mother was staying at a rental room above a shop house, with an Uncle. She told Mei the room number and she walked along the corridor searching for it. Along the corridor, there were women, scantily dressed standing at the “door” which was replaced with just a curtain. The place reeks of cigarettes and stale beer. She then realised what kind of rental room those were.

She was initially saddened to see her mother resort to this state. The pity only lasted a while when her mother asked her to fetch something for her in the wardrobe. Mei had come across a drawer full of different assortment of condoms, many condoms – she had seen enough, she felt disgusted. To bear the information that her own mother was making out with another man, other than her father, was too much for the girl all of 11years – she left hastily. She wandered around Rochor Canal road for a long time, not sure of where to go to, or how to go to anywhere.

When Mei got home, somehow her father knew where she went. Although she was never physically not emotionally close to her Santa Claus father, she ran into her father’s arms and cried loudly as if she was in pain. That evening, the silence between the father and the daughter was broken. For hours, he sat down cross legged, leaning against the wall, Mei sat on his lap. He rocked to n fro gentling, with his strong arms and big fat fingers, he held her tightly and patted her to sleep... Although Mei was already 11 when this happened, she felt like she was only one- a helpless one...

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Random posting + Soya's BonBons!

Some days back, I went for my hearty breakfast at the market...

ordered my usual:

Don't laugh! That's why it's call Hearty Breakfast!

It's the way I like to start my day... esp when I have something impt on... I like to make sure I start it right!

Kinda calms me down, keep me steady going!

Kopi-Prince asked me today

"Girl, u always jog at Bedok Reservoir hor?! I see jogging there even quite late in the evening!"

Hmm... that's a first... cos usually he n his brother will always ask me if I am a PE teacher or a Policewoman! So i just smile shyly and said "yes!"

So, he jogged there at often & have seen me around many times already! Then he exclaimed:

"Wau, I start jogging then see u, I finish liao u still jogging leh! U jog very long hor!"

"No lah, I jog very slow lah! That's why u finish liao I still jogging!

But that's the truth!

I jogged so slowly these days that I take 2hrs flat to complete my routine jog... damn chuiz lah, takes all my time up in the evening!

21yrs old medical student and national triathlete/marathoner MokYingRen finished his VIRIGIN marathon in Dec2009 in

2hrs45mins...

distance: 42.1km,

1st statement upon completion:"I m the 1st? Really?!"

30yrs old TaiTai Wannabe Me did her VIRGIN Half marathon in Dec2009 in

2hrs20mins...

distance: 21km,

1st statement upon completion:"Wau Sai! Finally finish siah! Ouch!"

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A couple of nites ago, I was startled awake at 1.55am by a loud glass crashing sound! Alas, C&N knocked over my heavy frost glass bedside lamp and it broke!

In the dark, I could figured the edge of the bed and quickly went to on the lights and cleared the broken glasses... then I saw

Then I realised that C&N was trying to "protect" me from the a/m.... Argh! I saw IT.... Creamie n Nugget were like playing table Tennis... & IT was the Ping Pong ball... Creamie gave a defensive backhand and Nugget caught IT when it spinned towards him, he returned with a forceful forehand chopper styled return.... so on & so forth... I have seened enough while I was dumbfounded for that while!

IT's Photo!

*Courtesy of Miao's blog*

Then I screamed....

yes, at 2am... it could sound rather scary...

So my Papa n Bro Edwards came outa their rooms n into my room AT THE SAME TIME & ASKED IN TANDEM...

"WHAT HAPPENED? GOT XIAO QIANG AH?"

This is probably the only time they will not give me a earful when I scream like that at wee hours!

They totally understand n accept that I will always be doing this-since I have done this for the past 30yrs liao!

Anyway, they "rescued" Xiao Qiang from the ruthless paws of C&N n put it peaceful "to sleep." R.I.P Xiao Qiang...

C&N were like so stunned that they looked at each other, seemingly asking:

"Eh... wat happened to our ping pong ball siah?" 

So without my bedside lah... it's dark n lonely... I decided to improvish something...

I gave GoodLuck Bear a BLIMEY BIG ONE between his....ahemm.... u-knw-where...

There! He's the Man! His got the ONE that torches my life!

He gives Woman like me HOPE in the midst of Darkness!

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Also, duno wat got into me... must be stress at work siah!

I bot a new calculator cos the 1 i had seemed to be working erratically....

I could choose from many colours...

the classic black...

the "apple-mac-crazy" all white...

the white with Mint Aquamarine...

But I chose this White & Pink Combi!

*1st person I tot of when I see this colour is Princess Clare! kekek!*

Nice?! Huat Ah in the new year to come!

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Decided to impromptu make some scones from the new recipe I got from Eeleen's sister's baking book!

1st time trying! it seemed rather simple but I had a few hiccups already!

1) Need 1 X Orange... of all the times that we had to throw away rotten oranges, I dun have ONE at home now.... cant find a place that sells ONE only also. Damn!

-Bo bian, dug out 1 Lemon in the fridge, replace with Orange bah! =P

2) The baking shop ran outa Self raising flour! Of all the Plain flour, Cake flour, Top Flour, Corn flour.... it had to be the Self Raising Flour that I need that got NO STOCK! What luck!

-Tough Luck, bot Plain Flour & self mix some baking agent using A-Ga-Ra-Tion portion! =P

3) Dun have round shaped cookie cutter! I've got Gingerbreadman, gingerbread house cutter but no simple ROUND cutter!

- AhHah! Improvished used a round container without the cap! =P

These are the Lemon rind & Sultana Scones!

Improvished my own ingredients and

made chocolate chips scones...

*Kids love chocolates right?!*

I named them SOYA's BON BONs!

*love the name!*

Just my Earl Grey Tea, Scone n Me....

 TaiTai wannabe strikes again!