I find it hard to put in words… But…have you ever this feeling?
When you are used to seeing someone all the time… you feel independent of the person’s feeling… you may even feel complacent… you feel your world will continues to revolve, even without the involvement of another person.
In normal circumstances, to normal people… when you dun have this person in your life, then you start to long for his presence – in simple english: You start to miss this someone…
But for 另类 Peculiar Soya, it’s more like this….
There’s this saying: Out of Sight, Out of Mind… Maybe it’s true for me to a certain degree….I am most reminded this someone is impt to me, when I am with him… cos this is when I can feel the closeness most… the bond… all the flashbk of the beautiful memories formed…
& knowing that we will be parting soon, & will continue to live our own lives later on….
This is when I miss the person MOST. When he is right beside me, when I look into his eyes…. Searching for the answer to the question in my heart… Does /Will this person Miss me as much I do for him?
Today… I feel this especially strongly… today is the last day of my service with my current employer…
I am missing my morning routine already…
waking up at 7.30am….
lazing till 8am…
preparing food for kitties…
putting on make up…
catching the morning bus number 34…
getting my Newspaper fix during the bus journey…
preparing my Morning Earl Tea fix in the pantry…
relaxing before the hectic day starts…. It’s all very serene to me…
Although I have only been with this company for a little short of 2 years… I miss each & everyone of my service staff and sales colleague already…
In our morning ra-ra this morning, all of them reminded me that I must be really happy that today’s my last day! I tried to sound cheerful when I told them to pardon me today if they caught me staring at them… I am most probably doing a Photographic scan of their faces, I wanna engrave this in my memory… =)
They commented that I sound very solemn… Goosh, they know me so well! I told them it’s because I miss them so much already…
Knowing me, I will probably feel better when I leave this place… but it’s at this VERY moment… I am feeling the heartache….
I hate departures… I hate sending someone off at the airport… I hate saying goodbye… seeing the person’s back view when he walks away… that’s why I always wanna be the one to catch the glimpse of the other party’s back as he walks away, rather than he seeing mine… Let me bear the heartache instead…
Then again, I am just feeling melodramatic lah… maybe the person wun even miss me the way I do for him? That’s it one-sided?
But for today… allow me to feel this way… I am pretty sure the gals are missing me already… normally very conservative… they reminded me that I must give each of them a BIG BEAR HUG before I leave today… Awwww…. So sweet… *sob sob*
My Morning Cuppa of Earl Grey+Raw Sugar...
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